cukur jambul anak ku!!!

haha. funny.. sebab b4 this i was just helping out my adik beradik buatkan preparation utk anak diorg nye majlis cukur jambul, but its MY TURN pulak... wuhu..

last 27th of April, few weeks b4 my father in law pergi Shanghai, we made this majlis for my Anggun, its her Majlis Cukur Jambul and Berendoi. hmm wondering what the heck is all this?.. future young and hot momies.. listen, this is very important ha.. at that time, my Anggun was already 5 months plus - plus. we had it together with my abang's daughter, Latrisya Orkid, as she was only 3 weeks older than my Anggun.. look how preety she is rite now..

the thing started at 10 am, lotsa ppl came to have this majlis berzanji and stuffs, and soooo my prepare ny Anggun nicely. :)

sharp at 11 am, they called us to bring both of the babies to be cukur the jambul. my lovely hubby, Ash, had to bring her first b4 my turn came up later..

then my turn came... ingat senang, tapi bila dah go thru myslef, damn, it was kinda hard jugak lah.. nak arrange timing during everytime orang nak cukur jambul anak kita..

but i find it very fun and enjoyable cz its all about her.. you know this thing that u have when everyone is looking at your cute anak.. hmm seronok sangat. its my Anggun day!

after all that done, my mak buat this majlis berendoi.. its this thing when a group of ppl, i mean orang tua yang pandai jugak lah, akan bersyair nasihat untuk anak while the my Anggun dok dlm buaian. hmm.. that was her first time ever dok kat dalam buaian.. mcm syok jer dia.. hahaha.. i bet mesti ramai tak sure ape ke mende nye majlis berendoi, but if any of you ppl know it, better buat utk anak kita, tak salah.. its fun cz u can see these ppl seems to care about anak kita..

hmm.. the day went excellent.. weh had fun to see our daughter had fun too.. despite both of us punye workloads and timing yang sangat limited, we manage to catch a day for our Anggun.. ffuuhh, lega rasanya..

ok, thats it for now.. so for newly parents, please do this if u can, cz its for ur anak.. they deserve to go thru this great moment in their life.

jgn sebb kita fikir ianya tak penting and mengarut ounye adat, they are the one yang akan missed all this..

well, i allah my next article will be about stg else. hmm.. wait arr..

anggunku kini membesar...

hello there, not sure how many of u have read my blog on regards my baby, but i will keep writing about her.. after nearly 5months raising her and keep feeding her, berat badannya sudah mencecah 5kg, alhamdullilah... thanks alot to Allah SWT. she started to smile. every morning when i woke up, she will give me her first smile ever, and my life feel ssooooo exteremely good. nuthing will make me feel so complete but her smile. Anggun has begun to immitate me while im talking. see.. sape cakap anak tak cukup bulan ni lambat?... thats all bullshit. but of course, u have to work harder. i started to buy her all sorts of toys although some ppl cakap its membazir cz shes a premature, but i just dunt care. one thing for sure, for mummies yang ada anak prem, jgn layan dia mcm budak prem, just treat her like normal regardless her size, her weight etc..

if u notice the last pix that ive put when my lovely husband, ash kissed my anggun when she was still at the hospital, u cann see how small she was rite, but now check this out.. huhuhu.. ----- >

shes the queen of my heart. she makes me wants to come back home as soon as i finished my works... she pour me with all blesses from Allah SWT.

owh ya.. speaking about this blessing, rite after i celebrate my 24th bday, with my anggun beside me, i got an offer to act for a drama, and i lead that drama, wuhuuu.. never thought of acting as part of my thingy after delivere, tp rezeki Allah.. ive been doing all sorts of productions job before way before i kahwin, try jugak nak masuk line2 berlakon, tapi agak susah nak sangkut. so after bersalin, ive told my husband that i would just concentrate with hosting jer lah.. lagipun mana ada org nak amik mak org berlakon rite.. kalau ada pun susah lah..

but entah cane, i got this job.. hmmm.. alhamdullilahh..

tapi dalam pada bersuka ria dapat rezeki lebih, ada jugak dugaanNya. i dont have that much of time to spend with my anggun anymore. my time is very limited. fortunately i ada bibik yang boleh ahrap. but still, i tak boleh nak serah 100% to her.

oppss.. got ta go jap..

will write back..

daa!

Kelahiran Ajaib...

tengku anggun deandra is my first baby, as how my previous post mentioned, she was born only at 1.08kg. the picture that i put there, that was already nearly 2months after she was born, kira dah besar skit.. but this one, that im gona show to u, is the real picture of her, when she was only few hours after di lahirkan.. tarraaa...!!! ---- >

yup, kepala dia sebesar buah epal, lebih kurang. secara terperinci, her head size is about 24cm, so ukur lah sendiri if u wanna imagine how small she was. at this picture, u can see all those wires and tiubs on her. during this, she was still in ICU, i think i took this when she was only 2days born. only God knows how i felt at that time. seksanya hati ni di carikan2 bila melihat anak yang dikandung, bila dilahirkan jadi macam ni. during that, only thing that i can ask to Allah adalah, 'Kalau betul ini dugaanMu, jangan Kau duga anak kecil ini, berikanlah segala duga dan ujianMu hanya padaku sahaja'..

as a mother, only thing yang buat aku lebih seksa adalah, i cant touch and hold her. doctor tak kasik. shes tooo small at that time. i can only see and watch her. i cant even kiss her.. bayangkanlah.. hati ibu mana yang tak sebak kalau tak boleh buat apa2 pada anak sendiri. frankly, mmg at first i cant imagine how my life gona be if i were to be amother. tak kira lah rancak mana pun hidup seseorang perempuan, tapi bila dah jadi ibu, mesti tersentuh bila tgk anak sendiri.

hampir 1 minggu berada i ICU, later she was sent to nursury, Alhamdullilah, no extra complication. doctor managed to take out the oxygen after 4days, and she can breath like normal. but still they have to monitor respiratory dia, jantung dia and her lungs. they told me that baby premature ada satu sindrom, they call it as Apdnia, which baby boleh terlupa utk bernafas.. hmm.. funny huh?. tapi mmg, cz practically, at this time, she was still in my womb, so baby prem tak biasa dengan keadaan luar which memerlukan dia utk bernafas.

FYI, 3 hari pertama, berat badannya akan decrease few grams, so the first week, when i asked the nurse, beart dia turun less than a KG, cuak tahap dewa but thats normal actually. so imagine, how long do i have to wait until berat badan dia increase till 1.8kg.. fuhh, lama tu. doctor tak allowed to bring her back cz shes too small, so takut kene cross infections etc. at her weight, doctor tak boleh kasik injection pun. so she didnt have any imunisasi pun. . what ive wrote here, adalah sebahagian dari risiko yang ibu kpd anak premature kene tanggung. tapi jangan give up, kene sabar dan support baby kita sendiri.

gambar d atas ni was after 10days, she had sent to the nursery dah. mmg takde oxygen supply needed but she still with her drip supply, cz takut die kering. at this time, she only took 5mls susu using tiub. 5mls tu not even suku ounce. kira satu ounce ada 30mls, so fikirkanlah, betapa sedikitnya susu yang dia minum. bukan taknak kasik lebih, but worried digestion dia tak stabil lagi. and plus, perut dia mmg kecik sangat., so takut takleh accept banyak2. why pakai tiub?.. sebab die kecik sangat, jadi kalau pakai botol feed, dia akan cepat penat, dan kalau dah penat, berat badan pun susah nak naik. ada 1 time, i terwatched the nurse feed her using tiub, Ya Allah, peritnya hati ni bila melihat anak sendiri, terkulat2 mulut dan llidahnya menahan tiub tu di jolok melalui anak tekaknya. she cant cry, cz takde kudrat lagi nak menangis.

Selepas hampir 3minggu, berat badanyya dah increase till 1.3kg, then ony doctor allowed to try botol feeding. Alhamdullilah, masa tu hanya Tuhan yang tahu betapa leganya hati ini. Akhirnya, anakku tak perlu menahan sakit dan rasa tak selesa untuk minum. but still, ada dugaan juga. baby premature ni nak minum mmg perlahan. pakai botol, nak habiskan 1 ounce tu, will take them about an hour nak habiskan. hmm, lamakan, mmg lama, tapi biar saya tunggu dari melihat tiub tu dijolok melalui tekaknya. hamir 3 minggu juga saya menantikan saat untuk memen=gang dan memeluk anak saya. akhirnya, kami dapat mencium dan memeluknya. itupun masih limited cz she still have this drip tiub on her hands. masih sabar menanti, walaupun cuba memujuk doctor utk beri kami bwk balik, tapi masih tidak dibenarkan....

selepas hampir 4minggu, sehari selepas Christmas, hati tak tahan lagi, saya terus mohon perlepasan dari doktor utk beri saya bawa pulang anak saya. walaupun rosikonya tinggi, tapi hati ini yakin, sebagai ibu, saya mampu menjaganya dan mematikannya tidak berjangkit dengan sebarang penyakit.

hmm.. dah lewat ni, ive to go. Ku Anggun saya menanti. ada bnyak lagi cerita nak distorykan, tapi nnt saya sambung lagi.

terima kasih kerana sudi membaca kisah KuAnggun saya ini..

will write then k.

tengku anggun deandra

tengku anggun deandra, a major gift from Allah SWT, tramendously most wonderful gift i ever got. Thank You Allah.. She was born on 20th Nov 2007, at Pantai Ayer Keroh, Melaka, on the dote at 6.41am, rite after Subuh. This is not just another gift from Him, but its totally different from what ive got all these before.

What im gona write here about her, for sure not a same maternity story. this is 100%depart from what u may think. My Anggun was born at 30th week, n yup.. she is premature baby. born at 1.08kg, she survive till now.. :)

ya.. small, but tough. trust me, shes not like any other prem baby. walaupun, kecil, tapi i can see her spirit will is soooo strong from the very first moment i saw her in ICU ward. ya.. she stayed there for about 7days. with all sorts of wires and tubes attached on her, she still can give smiley face.. Ya Allah, ini betul betul menunjukkan KuasaMu.. although strugling, but shes a happy baby. i delivered her thru normal. thank you my anggun. i know she knew her mom yang sangat takutkan pisau dan jarum melekat dibadan mummy. :)

my husband, Ash, she was still in shock during his first few hours of turning into a Daddy. mestilah, everybody would feel the same. frankly, both of us didnt expect that we gona see her this soon. she was only 7month in my pregnancy calendar. shopping barang dia pun tak habis beli lagi. i had a leakage on my waterbag. after 7 days of trying to keep her dalam perut, she decide to keluar and see the world. shes a fast 1.. hmm.. veerrryy fast one. masa dalam labour room, when ash arrived, i was struggling tried to tahan with all sakit. hows the pain?.. mcm kene period pain, tapi major one. for those yg dah biasa kene period pain yg teruk, this is nothing for u. but for me, agak terkejut urat tengkuk cz im not the type yang sakit teruk during my period.

i remember the first thing he said to me.. 'sayang, anggun kita nak keluar sayang..so relax and we wait for the moment together k..' God, when i hear Anggun's name, i smiled to him. hanya itu sahaja yang boleh membuatkan sakit yang tak terhingga ini, jadi lega..but from my experience, all the wives out there, if possible, mintak maaf from ur husband, tak kira u jenis yang melawan or not. cz masa tu, hanya kemaafan dari suami kita dan kejujuran kita sbg isteri yang boleh mengurangkan sakit bersalin.. at times of delivering, i remeber what ive done to my mak. Ya Allah, baru sekrg aku tahu, ini lah sakit yang ibuku tempuh utk melahirkan aku dulu.. segala yang jahat perilakuku, terbayang di kepala. hanya ampun dan maaf yang mampu saya ucapkan pada mak. setelah habis segala doa dan keringat, hanya 3 jam selepas itu, my life changed a lot.. A TOTAL CHANGES. .. :)

its late now.. gota lepak with my anggun. will write again on how to take care of a premature baby..

any mummy to be, would read this, jangan risau. tiada sakit yang tiada sembuhnya.. dan utk sakit bersalin, anak adalah pengubatnya, dan suami adalah penahan sakit..trus me..

CuCi?.. cuci apa?

another film by our local director. first time mencuba nasib dlm bidang pengarahan.. Hans Isaac, yang terkenal dengan watak2 romantis, mamat macho, control handsome, kini selangkah maju kehadapan dari akan2 seperjuangannya. Baru dalam bidang directing, tapi masih degil untuk mencuba. of course to compare film and music, mmg film industri kita better than music scene. but how better we are, im not too sure.

mcm apa yang cuba dilakukan olejh Hans Isaac, sama ada he will becoe the next millionnaire atau serah tenggok untuk disembelih oleh semua sponsor2nya, we have to see this tikus putih by him dulu. what happend, ive watched the movie, on their pra tonton at TGV 1Utama,back few weeks ago. event ok2. although in my point of view, he should ask his ppl to put more Cuci buntings, flyers,posters etc everywhere, tp itu ok lagi.. masa masuk dlm hall, apa yang LAGI kami nantikanselain filem Cuci itu sendiri, we were waiting for the moment of Hans Isaac bertemu mata dengan Erra Fazira, kekasih lama dia.. :)

for us, this is the drama, not the film.. hahahaha.. Erra came, good. we take it she can handle it. in short, she's professional lah.. like duh, knp tidak?.. ini bukankali pertama kan erra?.. dah biasa lah.. :).. but what we have kantoikan, adalah Hans Isaac yang kita kenal seorg yang cool, relax, tp pd ptg tu, sangat gabra, especially at time when he was giving out the speech. like duhh.. mestilah. bekas ratu hatinya betul2 kat depan mata.. mau tidaknya.

ok enaf with all these gossips yada yada yada.. back to our main topic, about the film. dengan durasi cerita yang hampir 1 jam 30minit, content cerita yang agak menarik, tapi penampilan plot yang agak huru hara. ada masa agak lambat untuk saya pick up apa yang terjadi. disebabkan plot2 yang agak kurang teratur, banyak benda boleh dipersoalkan especially on how the pelakon membawa watak dan content of the watak tu sendiri. tapi apa yang penting, gandingan ke 4 pelakon ni, mmg tak kering gusi dibuatnya.. lakonan bersahaja mereka memberi impak realism dalam cerita ini. tapi tak kurang juuga yang mempersoalkan yang percubaan Hans ini mcm nak tiru gaya Afdhlin.. tapi pd sy, tak kira siapa tiru siapa cz sebuah cerita yang best dan menarik itu terletak pada creativiti pengarah itu sendiri. barisan pelakon hanya membantu untuk promosi dan rating purpose sahaja..

saya mengikuti perjalanan filem ini dari hanya sebuah cerita yang disampaikan dari mulut Hans hingga menjadi sebuah filem yang boleh ditonton ramai. . satu usaha dan hasil kerja yang menarik oleh Hans, cuma saya yakin, kalau diberikan masa, Hans can do waay better. cuma saya harap, Hans tidak terlalu bergantung harap komen dari rakan2 terdekat semata mata untuk memastikan filem arahanya menjadi. director should direct his film, not others.. :)

kpd peminat film tempatan, pastikan tengok yang ini ..